29.10.10

growing up is not so tough, except when i've had enough! i'm calliou...

You've all probably realized that there are topics that seem to thread through all my posts, such as narcissism, the weather, and being a high school senior.

Well, things are not going to change. Insert evil chuckle here.

Being a high school senior, or a high school student in general, is bizarre. On one hand, everything that I do seems "so important," as if every step I take, every interaction I have, every move I make will determine my entire future. There's a lot of stress in this little bubble we're in. And, in this bubble, there's a lot of bullshit.

Sometimes I have moments where people are talking about parties or boys or something. And I feel outcast-ish because I don't care. At all. And sometimes I wish that I did care because I could join in their peels of laughter and conversations.

Don't get me wrong, I do love the people and the experiences I have and I'm thankful for all my friendships and moments of extreme laughter, but now that I'm reaching my final year, everything seems so mundane and insignificant and I just keep on feeling like there is so much more out there. And I can't wait. It's probably the scariest and most surreal feeling: knowing that, in a year or two, I will be alone, by myself, away (or so I hope. Unless I flunk out of high school, which would be fairly unfortunate and result in a rapid change of plans involving fast food chains). I want to cry tears of joy and fear and happiness while frolicking on a cloud of marshmallows and picking berries somewhere over the rainbow. With unicorns and dolphins.

Anyways, it's most important to keep perspective. The world is fucking beautiful. Sometimes I just need a reminder...





What's the last thing that made you smile?!
I'm turning into a life coach, but I'll just blame it on nostalgia and excitement. Hopefully the beauty of the videos will serve as a nice contrast to the posts that are to sandwich it (i.e. Halloween post up next, yo!)

14 comments:

Bianca said...

I'm in love with that Art video! x

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Deidra said...

You are going to LOVE college. :)

Stephanie said...

The last thing that made me smile was the movie Amelie. It's a french film, and it's really lovely. Amelie notices lots of little things and imagines and it's just really wonderful and I really recommend it. Also the way the movie is filmed and the characters are fascinating

Good luck with your last year of high school! I'm starting next year (lol little kid DX) and I hear the art teacher at the school I'm planning to go to is BRILLIANT so I'm kinda psyched :)

Exuvalia said...

The last thing that made me smile? Hmm, probably the last time I got Bubble Tea. I love Bubble Tea. xD

Hanna said...

I really liked the first video, the paintings were so cool!

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Maryrose said...

You just put into words how I feel about school, in ways I don't think I could. I'm in the same situation, but I think college will be a great step! Love your blog!

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Ali said...

Smile.. smile.. smile.. uhhhh probably when my dog stole my lobster plushie. IT'S SO CUTE even though I hate him for it. :D

sweet said...

everything makes me happy..and smile...I mean I always look at the bright side and simply love everything...

I make things positive...and always keep in mind that negative thoughts are bad for you!!!!

Kisses dear
Sweet
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Castor Pollux said...

Nice videos! Thanks for sharing :D Wow, I can't wait to be a hs student!

Castor Pollux

βe said...

Wow! How can you draw so fast. Lol. You ar such a great artist, and I'm guessing that in colledge you'll be studying. . . Arts and Crafts? You so should.

And the last thing that made me smile was your VIDEO! Whoop!

FashionJazz said...

Loved your video! You are so talented hun! Mwah xx

Joanne Faith said...

The last think that made me smile... I have just got a cat (!!!), and today I changed her cat food from her old food. I'm not 100% sure what her owner used to feed her, but I have a suspicion it was kitten food... and she wasn't eating it. I gave her the new food and she literally ho'd into it. It made me smile. C:

...I've turned into a cat lady btw... hahaha!

Don't worry too much about high school, if you're going to college that matters the most. So do the things you need to do to get there! I did not enjoy high school that might... it was boring! :P

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sojourned in style said...

that vid is insaneeeeee! so coool

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